back

i'm back to my current life. Back to the life of being alone in the room, facing the laiptop screen all day long, back to the life of independent. I arrived here last sunday morning, everything changed 180 degree in just 14 hours flight. No more sisters quarreling in the living room, no more mommy scolding, no more brother waking me up middle in the night to open the door for him, no more dogs barking, no more daddy calling me at night asking where am i... what i have here is just a very quiet environment.. quiet till i can hear the wind.

Well, maybe i should say that this place is belong to me. 3 weeks in Malaysia, there are nothing for me. I mean, yes, that's my house, there're family, relatives and friends. But... somehow i feel that there's nothing belong to me, nothing that i can do being a daughter, a sister, and a student. Here, this stupid uk land, is somewhere belong to me temporary. There're things for me to do here, I mean it's my responsible to study well, take care of myself, stay happily being a daughter who away from home.

Everything back to normal, heater not working, dirty and messy kitchen, weird flatmates, walk to uni under rain, carry groceries myself... no more kakak~ watch my own clothes, clean my own toilet.. etc etc. Hahaha... and people can see me online 24/7 again ~

Actually i am quite regret of went back home for 3 weeks. hahaha.. everything just mess up, feel so weird, and now i need to adapt to this environment again, i need to adjust back myself.. mentally.