I think I'm getting old, not to say OLD.. lots people out there will have angry with me if i claim 20 year old as OLD. I just feel like this is a significant change because I'm not going to be a teen anymore and everything else that's privilege for me will just go away, or maybe i should say, i have no right for that anymore. I'm no longer a kid, I'm the eldest daughter in the family, those people who really know me, always have this thought that "Yong Tze is an independent girl" (ops, i mean young lady?). Sometimes I rather be the youngest kid in the family, being a mommy or daddy girl, a very dependent gal, being a spoil kid, at least you have someone there for you, at least you no need to think so much about what and how is the world out there. I really hope that I am still a kid. Time a time, can you please slow down a little bit please?? I haven't get enough of my "teens"..
Comes to think bout it, I am now an university undergraduate student. No more kindergarten primary, no more secondary, no more college,but officially an university student. Hahaha.. It's quite unbelievable for me this kind of student get into UK university. When I was standard 1, I used to think that those standard 6 seniors who doing UPSR or going to graduate are very "big" they acted very mature, they are the "dai gor" in the school bus, where all the small kids should listen to them. When I was form 1, I got the same thoughts to those form 5 seniors. But now, i'm 19 turning 20, an undergraduate student, for me, i think i am still a kid, I'm not the one i used to think I suppose to be when I'm turning 20.
Alright, back to primary school. I got contacted back with my primary best friend. A girl who used to be my super best friend during my primary time. We stayed in the same taman, we were in the same bus, went to school together, we went to the same tuition center, we talked in the phone till late, we encouraged each other in studies, in love relationship =P , yes.. those kids time love story, hahaha... oh my god.. i really miss those days. She used to be my idol, my role model, i don't know why, but i liked her, I liked handwritting, i like her long long hair,I liked the way she got along with other boy classmates, for me she was those dream girl for boys will fall on. I was really a kampung girl last time, i only speak mandarin and hokkien, I don't know cantonese, I don't even know what is Astro when everyone in the class talking bout drama series showing on Astro, I don't understand what were those KL kids talking in school, to get into their group, i learnt cantonese, i learnt to pretend like KL girl. HAHAA... really stupid last time. Oh ya, i was a really sensitive girl last time, i got jealous or angry easily when she got so close with other girls or boys, same now, i am independent, but i am really scare of loneliness when i have to just be with myself. Hahaha.. remembered last time teacher used to ask us write diary, you know what primary students wrote on their diary book, other kids would write about their weekend activities,shopping , dinner, tv, games ,picnic etc, instead of writing where i went and what i did, my whole diary was about my friendship. How i quarrel with this girl, what this guy did to me..etc etc.. hahaha..and everytime teacher would leave some very funny comment to me. The teacher got this bad stereotype that kids under 12 are still kids, shouldnt have worry so much bout the world and the people around. Me and the very good fren of mine still kept contact with each other till we went to the different secondary school. We sent letter to each other, aw.. very sweet and romantic right?? we sent our pictures, birthday cards, etc etc. I remembered there was once i went to her secondary school, they had some function going on, I went there, hopefully get to see her, or maybe play together with her (okay..i know it sounds so wrong here), but she just came and hugged me, and then walked away. I felt really disappointed that time, hahaha.. i am really angry with her. What was our friendship meant to her? Had she ever treat me as her GF too? So.. slowly we lost contact. Maybe this is how i treated my friend, it's not because i forget them, just that... i cant remember them.... sorry to my friends that i didn't talk to you for very long time or those i lost contact with, it's not because i forget or don't want to friend you..please understand me =)
Last few weeks, she messaged me through friendster, and then we start contact and talk to each other. She's going to taiwan to pursue her studies, and and and..what really interested me is.. she told me that I was the one who introduce her boyfriend to her. And both of them got together for 4 years.. they met each other through me, and eventually fall in love for each other in form 3. ah.. i was like..wtf.. are you sure? i don't even know this guy!! hahaha.. then she said i met this guy through ICQ and introduced to her. aww..... i really have to admit that i am old, i cant remember things!!! Like what the queens told me, that's aging symptoms, and i'm on the final stage. Hahahaha.. rescue meeee !! some psychologists.. please help !
Comes to think bout it, I am now an university undergraduate student. No more kindergarten primary, no more secondary, no more college,but officially an university student. Hahaha.. It's quite unbelievable for me this kind of student get into UK university. When I was standard 1, I used to think that those standard 6 seniors who doing UPSR or going to graduate are very "big" they acted very mature, they are the "dai gor" in the school bus, where all the small kids should listen to them. When I was form 1, I got the same thoughts to those form 5 seniors. But now, i'm 19 turning 20, an undergraduate student, for me, i think i am still a kid, I'm not the one i used to think I suppose to be when I'm turning 20.
Alright, back to primary school. I got contacted back with my primary best friend. A girl who used to be my super best friend during my primary time. We stayed in the same taman, we were in the same bus, went to school together, we went to the same tuition center, we talked in the phone till late, we encouraged each other in studies, in love relationship =P , yes.. those kids time love story, hahaha... oh my god.. i really miss those days. She used to be my idol, my role model, i don't know why, but i liked her, I liked handwritting, i like her long long hair,I liked the way she got along with other boy classmates, for me she was those dream girl for boys will fall on. I was really a kampung girl last time, i only speak mandarin and hokkien, I don't know cantonese, I don't even know what is Astro when everyone in the class talking bout drama series showing on Astro, I don't understand what were those KL kids talking in school, to get into their group, i learnt cantonese, i learnt to pretend like KL girl. HAHAA... really stupid last time. Oh ya, i was a really sensitive girl last time, i got jealous or angry easily when she got so close with other girls or boys, same now, i am independent, but i am really scare of loneliness when i have to just be with myself. Hahaha.. remembered last time teacher used to ask us write diary, you know what primary students wrote on their diary book, other kids would write about their weekend activities,shopping , dinner, tv, games ,picnic etc, instead of writing where i went and what i did, my whole diary was about my friendship. How i quarrel with this girl, what this guy did to me..etc etc.. hahaha..and everytime teacher would leave some very funny comment to me. The teacher got this bad stereotype that kids under 12 are still kids, shouldnt have worry so much bout the world and the people around. Me and the very good fren of mine still kept contact with each other till we went to the different secondary school. We sent letter to each other, aw.. very sweet and romantic right?? we sent our pictures, birthday cards, etc etc. I remembered there was once i went to her secondary school, they had some function going on, I went there, hopefully get to see her, or maybe play together with her (okay..i know it sounds so wrong here), but she just came and hugged me, and then walked away. I felt really disappointed that time, hahaha.. i am really angry with her. What was our friendship meant to her? Had she ever treat me as her GF too? So.. slowly we lost contact. Maybe this is how i treated my friend, it's not because i forget them, just that... i cant remember them.... sorry to my friends that i didn't talk to you for very long time or those i lost contact with, it's not because i forget or don't want to friend you..please understand me =)
Last few weeks, she messaged me through friendster, and then we start contact and talk to each other. She's going to taiwan to pursue her studies, and and and..what really interested me is.. she told me that I was the one who introduce her boyfriend to her. And both of them got together for 4 years.. they met each other through me, and eventually fall in love for each other in form 3. ah.. i was like..wtf.. are you sure? i don't even know this guy!! hahaha.. then she said i met this guy through ICQ and introduced to her. aww..... i really have to admit that i am old, i cant remember things!!! Like what the queens told me, that's aging symptoms, and i'm on the final stage. Hahahaha.. rescue meeee !! some psychologists.. please help !
And then i found this old pictures we took during standard 6 school trip to Singapore. Ahhh..seeeee!! the yong tze is super young here !!! with her long long hair T_T
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lol ahahahahahahhaa .. you never change XD
but still some of them cant recognize me ><
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